I remember watching a video where our Hope talked about his name and something stuck with me. If I am remembering it correctly, he talked about how he uses his name as a reminder to have a bright outlook. He used his name as a inspiration. And then he named his studio similarly and built a whole world of hope.
There is so much about I admire about our boys. Each and everyone one of them. But there is something about j-hope and his world that make me feel such a sense of longing. For his skills of creating, yes. But also the sheer will power to create and acknowledge his own happiness.
I know it takes work to get there — to make my own world, to make my own happiness. There is nothing any member has that wasn’t earned by blood, sweat and tears. But sometimes I don’t think I have it in me. To put in the work. To be happy. Any of it.
And it all just fuels my jealously. Though, I still adore him, them, more than anything.
If you’re interested in learning more about how I title the poems or about this collection, you can read my introductory post here. And if you’re curious about the name attached to my poetry – CEK- you can check out the explanation on my Tumblr.